She loves you

In two days time I will be on my way to see Gaslight Anthem. I am genuinely very,very excited about this, in the way you can only be when you are seeing a favourite band. Over the last few months, a lot has changed in my life, I've grown and learnt a lot and I've faced some of the hard facts of life. Throughout it all Gaslight were my soundtrack, they literally got me out of bed on some mornings when I felt I couldn't move and when I was back in bed at night and couldn't sleep, I'd listen to them to help me through all the thoughts in my head. I always slept better after I'd listened to them.

Ironically I was properly introduced to their music by a guy who came into my life, turned it all around and then left me with a bruised heart and a love of a band from New Jersey. There songs became my bruised and battered against the world anthems, they gave me a reason to keep going, they gave me hope that it would all get better.

Just the thought of seeing them live on Thursday night is making me emotional. I've seen some of my closest friends go through pain in the last week or so and it acts as a painful reminder of how tough life can be sometimes and how you have to find things to help get you through it all.

For me, music and friends are two of those things and Gaslight Anthem have been my go to band for the painful days of the last few months, but they've also been my go to when I'm happy.

I tend to end up finding a band to get me through life's hard moments. When it's hard to scrape yourself up from the floor you're only going to do it for the music that will help. Gaslight have been that band and I'm sure that Thursday will be amazing for me. I know that it will feel like a celebration of making it through all this stuff alive but that it will also be filled with emotion. If by any small chance I meet them all I wanna say is, thank you. Because I'll probably be a big fangirl and not manage many other words.