Yesterday was a day of mixed feelings for me. I was working at a wedding taking photographs. Although really I was assisting another photographer and learning the ropes a bit, I was also taking photos and was paid for my work. This means that I can now officially class myself as a professional photographer because I have been paid for my work. This is a massive achievement, especially since it's been less than a year since I started studying and really learning about it. I always felt a bit sad that it took me 26 years to work out what I wanted to do with my life but really I should just be happy that I have worked it out and that when I have a camera in my hands everything else in the world sort of shuts out.
I started looking through the shots I took this morning and I'm really pleased with how they turned, considering it was the first time I'd ever taken photos at a wedding, I've got a lot of good shots and I'm really proud of them. I can sit here and look through them and feel that pride welling up inside me.
But yesterday after the wedding all I wanted was someone to share in my pride and excitement. I was supposed to be going out with friends but it was all cancelled so I just ended up at home by myself. I managed to distract myself until bedtime but I felt sad. I treated myself but it would have been so nice to have someone who was proud of me.
But I know that I've yet to meet that person so it's better to just be proud of myself and know how far I've come in the last year.
Yesterday was probably the first and last time I'll ever hold a bridal bouquet and I was only holding it for someone else while they had their photo taken.
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