My mum has always said that I'm a very emotional, sensitive person and that it makes her worry about me more, because I seem to feel everything. She's totally right and in a way I wish it wasn't the case but I'm also sort of glad that it is. I know that when things go wrong, or I get hurt that I feel it, really feel it and sometimes I wish I didn't because sometimes it hurts too much. But I know that I deal with it. I face the pain and hurt and work through it, work out why I feel the way I do, what I can do to make it easier and how I can learn from the mistakes I made and not repeat them.
Some people don't deal with how they feel, they push the feelings to one side, throw themselves into life and don't think about it. This might work for a while and at the end of the day the world doesn't stop turning just because you had your heart broken or bruised. Life carries on no matter what pain you feel but if you don't deal with it, it's gonna come back and hit you. Hard.
I watch as other people push the pain aside and I know that because I've been taking the time out to deal with how I feel that I'll be in a better place soon and I'll be able to really enjoy all the amazing things that are around the corner.
The reason I'm hurting is because the truth hurts and the truth is, if he asked, I'd give him my heart, even though I know he'd probably break it. But he hasn't asked and that makes my heart hurt anyway.
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