Terrible Love

Love terrifies me. Love tends to equal pain, because it means you care a lot about a particular person and that means that if they betray you or hurt you then you're going to feel a real sharp and horrible pain that will take time to heal.

The more you love the more you will hurt. It's only now that I've really fallen in love for the first time in years that I realise how closed off to love I was, how much I guarded and protected myself from the pain. I also realise how much I'd stopped believing in love.

Now there is someone in front of me telling me he loves me and I hear it, more importantly, I see it in his eyes. It's still like I can't quite believe it. I want to and I'm trying very, very hard to because I want to believe it and I want him to believe that I feel the same about him.

But I'm terrified because when you really love, you also really hurt. It's always about working out if the person and the love you share with them is worth the pain, if they are then you will fight through it for those moments when the stars align and your world feels complete now they are in it.