Heart on my sleeve

"Cuz I wear my heart on my sleeve, my appearance may be decieving, it doesn't matter what you think because the truth is in ink!"

I love to write but for the second half of 2009 I didn't really feel like I had anything to write about. In actual fact there was loads i could have written about but I wasn't ready to put it out there. Now I feel that I have a life worth writing about I figured I would start up again and maybe the stuff that came before will come out at some point.

So I'm living back in Scotland after 8 and a half years in London. I'm studying photography, which I love, I have my own little flat that feels like a home and some of the most amazing friends ever. I'm also completely and utterly back in love with music and all the other things in my life I stopped loving before.

It sounds really corny but thinking I was about to die has brought me back to life. In those few moments when I thought my life was going to be over, I woke up and although it took me a while to realise it fully I am now living my life the way I want to. I'm living out my dreams. I never thought on that horrible day in November 08 that what was happening would be a positive thing but it has been, its made me realise just how strong I am and that I am capable of coming back from anything life has to throw at me. I don't ever want to forget what happened, I don't ever want to forgive but I do want to keep trying my hardest to live my life. I was making a pretty big mess of it before and now I have a second chance to make it right and thats what I'm doing.