I can bend and not break

So today has been a running errands kind of day, although I say that the weather was so awful I didn't really get a whole lot done. Plus they moved the pet shop, which didn't help. Anyways it was one of those days where a lot of stuff was running round my brain. Recently I have, without sounding arrogant, had no problem in meeting boys, but they have just been that, boys, younger then me and with no real idea of who they are. I haven't been all that bothered about any of them, just been going out with girlfriends and living my life. No one has really blown me away. Until now and hes not a boy at all!
Its funny how you deny things to yourself to save your heart. I thought he had a girlfriend so I refused to even think about why when I thought I saw him in the pub one night, my heart jumped. But then he made it pretty clear he is single and he also asked me about my situation. So now I have let the crush I have run free!! and of course now I'm terrified. I think I've been kind of hiding in these boys because I know its not going anywhere, that I won't feel anything therefore I won't get hurt. Again. But now I really like someone and as much as it's an amazing feeling it's also full on scary. Because he might not like me back, because he might and then it might work and then it might go wrong. There are far too many mights running through my head. At the bottom of it all though is that this person is the kind of person I always pictured myself with. He is real and because all this is real, the hurt could be real too. But if I have learnt anything from my experiences its that you have to feel the fear and go for it, because everything might be taken away from you at any moment and its better to have said you tried. Plus if he feels the same back then what happens next could be really something.